Today was a simple day. Coleman had a basketball game and they won and he scored 5 points and had several rebounds. Then we went to Fayetteville. Justin and Coleman needed some clothes and we had to get a water filter. As I walked past the baby section in Target I held Justin's arm. It was hard. I have bought most all of our baby stuff at Target. I need to take it back but I just can't bring myself to let Justin do it. Is that wierd?
The hardest part of the day was at Old Navy. As I walked around I saw a woman with a brand new baby and she had my infant carrier and stroller. That was difficult. Boy, how I stressed about that infant carrier. I wanted it to be perfect. I picked a green one with brown. It would have matched the nursery perfectly. It is amazing to me how the craziest things hit me and effect me. I know I need to get used to this. It is going to my life from now on. There will be triggers all around me for the rest of my life and they will set me off.
Even with triggers and sad moments, It was a good day. I appreciate my time with my family more. I take the time to stop and just enjoy my children more than I used to. I'm learning what is most important. I am growing and I am becoming a better mom and wife. I am very thankful to God for this.
You need to take pictures of that tree when it gets planted. You can go to it and pray on those days when the 'triggers' are the hardest. God will always listen.
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